I want a boyfriend who gives me flowers,
who works long nights for me.
I want a spontaneous boyfriend,
a sweetheart who writes poems about my eyes
and takes those flowers
to decorate my entire yard.
I want a boyfriend who speaks with eloquence
who challenges me
and sees me
as his elaborate equal.
I want a boyfriend who teaches me things-
whether it be about life,
or the pointless joy of sitting on a game
just to yell at the screen
I want a boyfriend who creates things with me-
or art and conversation:
the little things that give life value.
I want that boyfriend to stay for years,
talking to me every night
until he cannot possibly stay awake anymore.
I want a boyfriend who loves me like crisp air in the fall mornings.
But above all,
I want him to see the joy and life he created.
Because he deserves to be more happy
I want a boyfriend I don't deserve.
It's been 2 years, and I still don't deserve you.